The good in good-bye.

Do you know that feeling when your alarm goes off in the morning, and you’re all warm under your plushy blanket? But then your voice of reason keeps reminding you that you have to get up and go to work, or whatever it is, but you know that when you rip your blankets off, life is going to be really shitty for a few minutes?

That’s kind of what it’s like when you have to tell an important person in your life good-bye. Despite how comfortable and happy you are with someone, sometimes voice of reason tells you that this isn’t working anymore. And even though the idea of ending a relationship can be cold and scary, sometimes it just has to be done.

The reason why I started this business is because l strive to capture that warm fuzzy feelings that we experience in our relationships. Whether it’s with our spouse, friends, or family, I strive to translate that emotion into imagery. Over the past few months I have been the photographer for so many amazing love stories, and I’ve worked so hard to get to this peak in my business.

But recently, my life turned upside down.

My relationship of almost 4 years has ended because he doesn’t love me anymore.

One of my best friends decided that her secret relationship with my boyfriend was more important than ours.

And now I’m left with this question: how in the heck I am supposed to capture beautiful love stories, and blog about them, when my own perception of love has become so deluded?

This experience has given me a lot of lessons. One coincidently being that failure in itself is a lesson. Whenever you decide to put yourself out there, your heart technically is at risk. But the thing is, we keep doing it. We put ourselves out there, we meet new people, we date, all because it’s worth it.

I’ve learned that rejection is redirection. Ultimately, we’re just looking for someone who compliments us right? We’re all just looking for a partner to encourage us as we grow. If your significant other found someone else that compliments them more, then it makes sense to just let them be happy. This just means that there is someone out there for you that’s an even better fit.

People who cheat on you is a complete reflection of their issues. As much as I could sit here and think of all of the reasons why Jon decided he didn’t love me anymore, I realize this has nothing to do with me. And I’m not in any place to speak for Jon, or the decision that he made.

But to answer my own question, how am I supposed to move forward: I know that I still love love. I know, that the reason I started this business, my why, will always be inside of me. But right now, my metaphorical covers have been ripped off, and I’m cold. Frozen, actually. I’m still waiting for my metaphorical heater to warm up in my metaphorical car.

So, for those of you who are still waiting for an email for me, a response, or anything, thank you so much for being so patient! I really appreciate all of the friends that I’ve made, and I’m truly grateful for all of you. 💛 I really hope that these words helped someone, or encourages someone else who is going through something similar!